5-Day Rollercoaster
Straight Lines
Cryptic messages of struggles past and blurred lines of things to come. The fight is real, and this path ain't straight. The highs are high, and the lows are low, just once a true straight line, is that too much to ask for? One day it's all figured out, and the next, you just don't know if you have what it takes, and then you feel like the weight is too much, and you want to throw it all away. Your fight then comes through, your determination like piercing screams of ecstasy at night. Sheer willpower and blissful follow-through make it all worth the battle scars. Straight lines, you say? Ha, that's for the birds. My journey looks like this: up, down, back, back, way down, way up, straight, down, up. The roller coaster of emotions, feelings, confusion and misguided expectations give way to answers otherwise unknown. Awareness and clarity are what I desire, wealth and power; your destination seems so unpretentious. Your eluding nature and the complexities of your formula make me question my existence. Straight lines are an illusion of faith and content; its reality is nonexistent. Keep Shining Loves-💕JazLet me tell yall about this week. Whew
So Monday was excruciatingly boring, lol! Now, don't get me wrong, I am most grateful for employment in this shaky economy and even more thankful for PAID employment, lol! Now, I am in training, and most of what we are doing right now is computer-based. This means I sit in an office 8 hours a day and listen to someone talk. BIG FUN! Monday, we spent most of the day doing workbook pages and talking to each other, but it was a half-day, so I can't complain too much.
Tuesday came around, and this was the best day of the week! I didn't have training, and I got to work with customers and did REAL work! I submitted a credit card application, a business line of credit, opened an account, got someone registered online, and helped one customer submit a reimbursement claim! I swear yall Tuesday went by so fast it was time for me to go to lunch before I knew it! I think my favorite part of this day was the customer interaction. IF you guys have been with me for a while, you know that customer service is a big part of my life. I would go so far as to say it is a passion, so being able to be in my element, building rapport, answering questions, talking about credit and money, I just felt invincible!
Vulnerable Moment: My Strength Comes From Those Around Me
Then we get to Wednesday, complete 180 from the day before; NOTHING went right! Wednesday morning, I got up tired, which I didn't understand because I went to sleep at a reasonable time. I was rushing. I burned myself with my morning tea, ripped my skirt, dropped my food; I couldn't log into my account to check on my service request, my refrigerator decided to break, OHH, and to top it off, I got mud on my shoes! YEP talk about a great day! Oh, and when I got to work, no better. We got a new trainer, and boyyyyy is this one bland, lol! I was already tired, and she didn't help matters, but that's neither here nor there; the highlight of today was watching Grey's Anatomy.
‘“I opened a credit card application!”
Thursday was nothing to brag about. This week has been a real struggle, but I am still here and pushing through. Today I ordered lunch from this fantastic Mediterranean place close by; I think I have a new favorite type of food. So the first time I went was Tuesday. I ordered the lamb gyro with the basmati rice muah *chef's kiss* Delicious! Today I ordered the lam feast; I know, way to change it up, Jazz lol! But I got roasted potatoes this time, so technically, I did! Luch was great, although the process wasn't all that wonderful. So I ordered my food from Grubhub; I won't be doing that again! So they brought me the WRONG order, and I had to drive 20 minutes back to the restaurant to get it fixed! Thankfully the staff was terrific. The manager recooked my lamb and potatoes at no charge. Class today wasn't that interesting, we got out early, and I spent the rest of the day catching up on my compliance courses.p!
It takes a village to raise a child right; it also takes a village to save them!
Friday was much better, mostly because I got to leave at 330. I had a headache most of the day, so I was thankful to be out early. I got home caught up on my fitness, lol, and then my puppy and I headed out to meet my sister for froyo! Yummy! They had a jazz festival happening downtown, so we decided to check that out for a few hours, And that was the day!
As my weeks progress, I hope to have more exciting things to share with you guys. For now, I'm just thankful that my mental health is getting better. We arent 100%, but I'm on the upswing. I haven't been down as much, and I have had the strength to push through more often. So for those of you that have had crummy weeks, just know you can get to the other side. I have said this before, but while you are going through the storm, it may not feel like you can make it, but just know once you know, you will look back and say, "dang, I made it," the journey will be worth it, and so will those hard days! YOU GOT THIS!
Just A Reminder
Black Girls
Will ALWAYS
Be MAGIC!
As always, thank you ALL for allowing me to share my passions and experiences with you! I hope that my blog inspires you to go after what you want and believe in yourself because I believe in you! Now strike your POWER POSE- We got this, LET’S GET TO IT!!
Keep Shining Loves
-💕Jazz
