The Struggle is Real
She Rises
Through tears, she sees, through pain she pushes, thoughts of ending it all reign true. She prays, and she works, she sows, and she waits. Her mind takes over many times past, and she wonders if it's even worth the fight. Her promise seems ever more fleeting, and the effort she makes all but drains her. One day she sits and thinks. Then realizes her destiny is still hers, and the goal is still there. It takes time for greatness and patients along the way. As the old saying goes, Rome wasn't built in a day, and my dear, neither is your empire. The words sound sweet, and there is truth behind them. The problem now is SHE! She doubts herself, gets frustrated, compares herself, and is at times envious. She wonders if her work is in vain if she is working hard enough. BUT WAIT, a realization one day! An epiphany, if you will. She notices she was inspired by what previously caused her grief and anger. She was motivated by things that once made her pity. Her new revelations gave her power and drive. She believes she can do it. The work is what she fears. The failure, the lessons, the no's, and the yes's. Keep Shining Loves-💕Jaz“The Failure, The Lessons, The no’s and The Yes’s”
Even in all this, she knows she must prevail. In Her strife and her determination, she rises. Kicked by something as simple as wind, slapped by something as inferior as fate, She rises. The angled juxtaposition of her fate and her journey gives way to her rise and yields to her confidence. She rises as high and as mighty as untouchable. To heights, her ancestors dreamed of. She remembers her climb, which negates her fall, and she keeps her humility and shows them all. Her magic, her beauty, her graciousness, and blithe make her presence infectious and her embrace just as sweet. She rises to heights she never knew existed; she pans through sights of neverending prosperity. She rises and falls and gets back up, on to the next.
Vulnerable Moment:
Trying to find my strength
Hey, my friends, we're back at it! So, this week has been full of challenges, both personally and professionally. Work has been increasingly more engaging, and I am enjoying it! There were a few challenges where I found it hard to stay awake, but I did it!! We also had a board meeting this week, which went well. I tried this new tea, and let's just say that a tea you should drink when you don't have any place to go, if you catch my drift! Mentally I'm doing better but still a little rocky. I FINALLY got my insurance card, so I CAN GO TO THERAPY!!! Guys, I am so excited! If you all know me, then you know that mental health is a topic I enjoy talking about because I think it gives you a sense of who I am. Sharing my highs and lows lets you know that it's ok not to be ok, but getting help is also ok! I struggle with anxiety and what I think is a bit of depression. I have this thing that I can't get out of my head, and it causes me to doubt myself and my abilities.
“I Think It Was A Bit Of Depression”
When I started this blog, I wanted it to be a different type of motivation. I didn't want to spew the brew, hahaha, that most motivational speakers give. The whole anything is possible if you just believe and not show you the truth about the in-between. So let me be clear anything IS most undoubtedly possible if you just believe. The thing is, during that time, there may be periods of frustrations, self-doubt, and questioning your worth. The strength comes in knowing that even in those times, your dream is still there, and it is still up to you to make it a reality! It is ok to feel down, not to want to, it is ok to feel defeated, and the important thing is not to stay there. As I have said before, feel the feeling, process the situation, and pull yourself through it. Whether that be with a life coach, a therapist, a pastor, or a priest, get someone that you can confide in that will give you the confidence to find your way up!
It takes a village to raise a child right; it also takes a village to save them!
Project Inc. I have earned so much on this journey and have also suffered just as much. I have doubted if this is meant to be, doubted if I can make it, and questioned whether or not I should keep pushing. Even realizing that it WILL work, and I WILL make it, I still get frustrated and down. Why? Because I don't know when it will happen. So, I want to have kids, and I have said to myself that if I can't manage to create a prosperous legacy by the time I am 35, then I can't have kids. Ok, Ok, before you scold me, hear me out. I want my children to be brought into a world where they have choices. I want them to have the best possible life I can give them, and if I can't do that by then, then in my mind, I don't need to have kids! Yep I know, rash, right!
Just A Reminder
Black Girls
Will ALWAYS
Be MAGIC!
As always, thank you ALL for allowing me to share my passions and experiences with you! I hope that my blog inspires you to go after what you want and believe in yourself because I believe in you! Now strike your POWER POSE- We got this, LET’S GET TO IT!!
Keep Shining Loves
-💕Jazz
